I matriculated this month and because I could not afford to make my hair, styled my hair myself in the morning before leaving, my mum really wanted to come for my matriculation but somehow fell sick so my elder ones came instead.
Matriculation connotes something of joy to people but I wasn't really happy, I felt shame and at the same time, I did not post anything because I wanted to keep my life private however, I posted a picture due to my hair, I wanted people to see the beauty but unfortunately, I had not taken any picture without the cap and gown for my hair.
The picture I posted👇
This is a spillover for you. 🥰
Despite all this, this was a very depressing month for me, I was going through a lot of things and not talking to anyone about it, it messed up with me a lot, and at times, messed up with my relationship with people. I was reading something into what was not.
I had days where I would cry endlessly and it always transited into other things, I would cry for days on end consecutively but somehow, in all that God was present. He was very present and sent people(online) to me at times to just help me out when I felt like giving up.
I felt incredibly suppressed in my environment at the time as well, this led to many mood swings at times as well.
He was present, yes, but then there were days I questioned His love, questioned why He would have me go through certain things, I mean, He was teaching me a lot, teaching me on favour, forgiveness and a whole lot more but then, why am I going through so much pain? What is this?
At times in the month, I found myself involved with people I didn't want to be associated with for a long period of time and He somehow always drew me out of it whenever I prayed about it and led them to others... this led to me being alone but I did not mind.
He gave me an instruction though this month which I delayed with until He insisted I do it on a particular day; April 21st. He said I should write down the qualities I wanted in a friend, I did and oh well!
I did and waited on Him.
The International school of ministry I chose to attend began this month and had classes on Sundays which I attended at times and it required sacrifice of my time... sacrifice of my time however, bear in mind that I had not finished my payment yet so it required sacrifice of my money as well, this led to me being empty several times; by this time, I was accustomed to it though due to experiences in previous years.
So accustomed that I did not tell my siblings or parents and resolved that I would pay it myself; This simple resolve led to many other problems. It became so bad that a pastor from the school of ministry called me the next month. I was very horrified and felt terrible.
My response when He called was👇:
Find out in the next release. 🤗
~ Omokhuwa.
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