Omokhuwa

Recently, my mind has been a haze. I have felt the need to rein in my thoughts, my feelings, my pain from those who care about me. It seems like I thought that sharing these things would make me seem emotional and like an overthinker of sorts. I feel the need to do a bit of cut and join with those around me and it's not to be so. So we meet, laugh and play together and then when I'm alone, I am back to wondering how things will go. I am left to my thoughts, these thoughts that plague me constantly and this should be the same for many others.  Who has placed these standards for perfection? How many times have I spoken to my friends about surface things as well when there is so much going on with them? This is why people say we should pray for our friends often but I wonder how much fuller and richer our relationships will be if we communicate openly more, there does not need to be a guarantee that a solution will be provided. If only we just talk. If only we just open ou...

On the 8th of March 2023, International Women’s day, I watched a talk on Netflix by Brene Brown titled: “ The Call to Courage.” While listening to all she had to say, I realised that I had an issue with commitment. I was committed to certain things but not fully. I was committed to God but not fully. True, I trusted what He had said and certain things in scripture but I realised that at almost every point in time, I had tried to use logic to explain most of what He had told me. Even personal promises that I had written down. I realised then that I was running from fully committing to God should something happen and He fails. Yes, I know the word of the Lord is true and if He said it, He will do it. You know, I really believe His words in people’s lives. Sometimes, I could even be the one communicating that word to a person or group of people. I just wasn’t sure of His word in my life and if I should really hold onto it, really hold onto His personal promises to me. One thi...