I have felt the need to rein in my thoughts, my feelings, my pain from those who care about me.
It seems like I thought that sharing these things would make me seem emotional and like an overthinker of sorts. I feel the need to do a bit of cut and join with those around me and it's not to be so. So we meet, laugh and play together and then when I'm alone, I am back to wondering how things will go. I am left to my thoughts, these thoughts that plague me constantly and this should be the same for many others.
Who has placed these standards for perfection?
How many times have I spoken to my friends about surface things as well when there is so much going on with them? This is why people say we should pray for our friends often but I wonder how much fuller and richer our relationships will be if we communicate openly more, there does not need to be a guarantee that a solution will be provided. If only we just talk. If only we just open our mouths and really communicate. One thing that will come at least will be relief should you be talking to a person of integrity.
One thing I also noted recently is that the people I had around me were very deliberate and great people. I wondered how this had happened. How did I discover this fact? I thought of a couple of people in my circle and I was like, this is a great person, an influential one as well. As I began to go outside my circle but with those I had access to, to an extent, I was even more amazed. How? How do I have so many great people around me? Men and women who are so intentional. Who are determined and who move circumspect in the will of God. People who know what they want and strive for it.
If you are reading this now and you feel you are a friend but you don't think you are all I highlighted earlier, I just want to let you know publicly that I see you and that I think you are all this. There is a drive and each person has a gift. An eye for something. My God! Thank you for these ones.
Thank you for the ones I have around me. It couldn't have been because of me. Yes, I am a very particular person but still, you were the one who made me like this and brought these ones. For that, I am grateful and I thank you. If you desire quality friendships, strive to be a better person, a type of friend you would want to have and as I pray God helps you as you do and brings the right relationships your way too.
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