2021 Year Review

 An unexamined life is not worth living.

                           ~ Socrates

It is because of the Lord’s lovingkindnesses that we are not consumed, Because His [tender] compassions never fail.

                        ~ Lamentations 3:22

   I am Omokhuwa and as with many others, I have seen a lot this year, I believe I cried every month in 2021, now, as hard as this may be to believe, I was someone who didn't cry so much in recent years. 

Wellll, in all my tears in 2021, I learnt a lot and going through my Journal lateron this month helped. I met amazing people this year! People who challenged me and helped with my growth in God, with Jesus.

I saw Jesus and experienced a lot. I learnt a lot, I was exposed to a lot. I had to give up some things due to school. I wrote poetry this year.. not as much as 2020 though. I gained admission to a school this year. Had some issues there and was later referred to another by Chaplain Tope Johnson in Landmark University, Gained admission for a fresh start but that wasn't what I got. Instead, I got admission to a higher level and was later demoted due to result issues. And.. Oh yess, lest I forget, I wrote some exams two years ago and failed due to undue diligence and lack of light and identity. Procrastination had a major role to play too. 

I guess all this shouldn't make me the awesome huwa you dreamed of, for those who know me or the amazing role model you dreamed of.

I went to landmark university, fell in love with the environment. Came to Redeemers University, felt it was a far cry from LMU but in RUN, I have learnt more. LMU suited me because it was made for the likes of me. It challenged me but not too much. RUN, on the other hand, challenged and challenges me a lot. You know, how we talk about what we speak about most revealing purpose.. Well, RUN has done that. I also made destiny revealing relationships in RUN. I almost faced Panel though and that would have been sad because then my parents would have had to be wary of me.

Ohhh... Lest I forget, this year, I also made the biggest mistake of my life.. Getting into debt knowing I have no stable source of income to learn something that wouldn't let me earn one.

 This year, I clocked 19 on the 10th of July and my 19th birthday was pretty amazing as I cried almost all through the day, stayed indoors throughout, drank Garri because I was broke due to debt and I wouldn't ask my loving parents or siblings for money... Journalled and spoke to Jesus. He showed up though.. The money also left pretty easily because I had things to buy and was sooo, still is sooo loyal with my tithe so for every amount that came in, I tithed. At this point though, I was tithing 20%. I know, rightt? I also spoke about starting a group that teaches on Relationships that God had been speaking to me about since 2019.. We began on the 17th of July.

Don't worry sha, the debt was not too plenty. I paid it off.. humbly went back to 10% because welll.. 

I spent about 65k if not more on developing myself this year.

I haven't fully implemented though. I got referred by someone for a very big deal but lost it due to emotional issue, lack of preparation and fear.

I made amazing friends, friends who stood by me, sent a couple of emails out, I joined some new email lists including Seyi Makinde, James Clear and Dolapo Hamzat. I was fortunate enough to also be led to a God ordained mentor. I started a learndailychallenge but stopped in the 33.. day of 365, I will continue it though. I will finish what I started. 

I learned to love this year, to be open.. vulnerable, to some degree. I shared my story this year whenever I felt like and when I wanted something for myself most times, I did it for others.. So, If I notice I want someone to get me something, I decide to give instead because it is better to give that to receive. Not all the time though.. but I mostly gave when I wanted to receive something apart from doing it for love or as led. It helps one love, it helps you with empathy , it helps you relate because you know what they want. 

 My mum passed on on the 26th of August, 2021, I was writing exams when this happened so I didn’t find out till the 1st of September, I wasn't able to see her since February 23, 2021 which, in its own was sheer luck as that was when I had issues with School and now.. when I was going home, she passed on. Our Dog, Jace, passed on too about two weeks after.

I almost died in my hometown too. I got admitted for the first time in my life in my hometown and received Drip too. I meannn, because of that, when I turn 20 now, I can’t hype the fact that I turned 20 without being admitted to the hospital. 

What has really helped me this year is my Relationships . The Relationships I had more than anything helped me, both in School and outside School.

2021 has been pretty eventful.

In all that happened this year, I have grown and isn't that the most beautiful thing? Growth and Personal development. It's not easy for anyone to do this. It's not easy by our strength but then, We learn by God’s help.

Towards the end of the year, I learnt to let go, to release and to go with the flow. I am learning to live fully, to be Omokhuwa, this beautiful child of God, Jesus’s Bride. I am learning to prioritise myself too. I hope you learn to do this.

                         ~ Philippians 3:13

Brothers and sisters, I do not consider that I have made it my own yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the [heavenly] prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

                             ~ Philippians 3:14‬

I will stand at my guard post and station myself on the tower; And I will keep watch to see what He will say to me, And what answer I will give [as His spokesman] when I am reproved. Then the Lord answered me and said, “Write the vision And engrave it plainly on [clay] tablets So that the one who reads it will run. For the vision is yet for the appointed [future] time It hurries toward the goal [of fulfillment]; it will not fail. Even though it delays, wait [patiently] for it, Because it will certainly come; it will not delay.

                              ~ Habakkuk 2:1, 2, 3.

I want to leave you with this as you enter a new year; 

Go over how your year went and how you can be better, If possible, Keep a Journal for keeping a Journal helped me follow my Growth all through the year and God’s love also, his faithfulness. 

Don’t rush the Growth Process.

Have a plan and be very intentional about your relationships this new year.

I will write to you again.