January 2021 || The Breaking

I am home now, what will I do with my life? Please you have to understand, I had just been involved in certain unfortunate circumstances. What will I do? My parents were fretting already.

What school will I attend? Will I have to go to a private school afterall despite everything, despite all the money spent? I was lost, sad and at the same time nonchalant. Sad due to peer pressure mostly and everyone likes to succeed, nonchalant because I had no passion for these things or actual directions on why I needed to go to a place or where I needed to go.

At this time of the year, I was teaching in my parents school, I really wanted to know what I would do though, I wanted direction but I did not care enough. I knew what I wanted as well but I wasn't heard.

Sometime in the month, My brother and I visited a university called Bells University, it was terrible. I did not like it, the colours were tacky, they were using louvers that were broken and what's even more, the security stopped us at the gate due to the hair I made, I made crochet using the blonde colour, they did not have so much issue with the hair as they did with the colour and from the gate, decided I was not fit to be a prospective student. They would not let me in.

It took talking to them and waiting for some minutes before we were allowed to go in, what we saw however, was not appealing to the eyes, the fuss was all for nothing. I would be allowed to go in though as a 200 level student into food and nutrition department. I had no passion for it and that was my younger sister's field.

We left and lateron decided I should just go to landmark university and start over. I agreed to[It's not like I had much of a choice] and began the processes for entering the school; This included going on a zoom call, writing exams e.t.c and they could even determine what field I was fit for due to how I answered the questions.

It showed I was good for the art but I was not going for any art course, I was going to study agricultural economics.

I paid the minimum fees required to enter into the school and got ready to go to school. My hair was not made and I thought I would go like that and make it in the school but my mum would not have it and asked me to go make my hair, saying I would look rough going like that. In hindsight, I was glad she did.

I was nonchalant about the school I went to and the course I was to study because it had to be a 'profitable' one, I did not particularly care and I did not fully understand a thing.

In landmark, a levels were not accepted but I had made a grave mistake again this month. I had upgraded from jamb to jupeb, this would later come back to bite me in the following month as it affected my staying in landmark university.

~ Omokhuwa.