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My Current Emotion

 "I just had feelings, still have feelings and what I realize is that, There is a place of feelings where you can honour the Lord"

                ~ Chandler Moore, from his album, Feelings.


Currently, I feel unstable, I feel numb, in a sense but at peace.

I feel sensitive, but desensitised.

I feel unready for a lot of things but unconcerned.

I feel like doing something risky but I will not due to logic.

I feel an headache coming up and as though I might be slow for the rest of the day.

I feel overwhelmed but underwhelmed.

I feel smart but unwise.

I feel the joy of the Lord strengthening me but unsure.

I feel like journalling but I do not have the words to write.

I feel like talking to God but I do not have the words or rather, I feel I should have nothing to say to Him.

 I feel selfish for thinking about me but happy I am, in a sense.

I feel overwhelmed by God’s mighty hand of protection, of love but I wonder why at times.

I feel sad I have to feel a great loss and act like everything is fine at times after almost a year but happy no one is the wiser.

I feel unhappy about having the right words to say but happy I do.

I feel sad about how my life's journey was but grateful for where it has led me thus far.

I feel surrounded but not seen.

I feel God but I do not.

I feel confused about faith in God but confident in His power and timing.

I feel grateful for the little things but still longing for the big things.

I feel suppressed but expressed.

I feel hurt and pained by what God allowed happen on August 26 but choose to love him and look for the best in what happened.

I feel disconnected yet connected.


Above all, I feel held by God, I feel strengthened, I feel Joy.


The question now is, is it possible to feel this much at once? I assure you, it is. It most definitely is.


It's Day 4 of 21.


~ Omokhuwa.

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