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I was reading a book recently and in that book, I saw something about Jesus talking about us being His mouthpiece but how we will still be seen because what we write pr the message we are sent to deliver are not scriptures so they will still be influenced by us.

Permit me to speak of something I have been battling with recently on this space...

I was recently appointed to two leadership positions in my placement and i have had to struggle with something that I haven't had to struggle with for as long as I can remember.

I have had to struggle with my speech and I have been incredibly self conscious and self preservative as well.

I know, I know as believers or leaders as the case may be, we shouldn't speak of our struggles until they are over, being too open is almost forbidden but speaking about heaven, God and His faithfulness even in this is highly welcomed. I'm afraid I will be too raw for you then, I'm afraid I will have to get some getting used to.

Lately, I have been struggling with my sense of self, been trying to balance out life or figure out how to balance put life, my gaze has been shaken... it has in this phase, shifted from Jesus to me... when my gaze was on Jesus, all was good and fine but now that it's on what my eyes can see not even what my heart can see, I am almost paralysed and I am running.

I still do not care about certain things but I realised I am beginning to care of how people will perceive me should I begin to act, it's funny, Jesus, the perfect example, didn't live for the approval of men and so He did all He did for the Father, only talking about some of the things He did to give correction. He was, He is and He will always be a reformer. One whose ways should be studied over and over again.

I want to be like Him so much and stay focused on the path He has layed out for me, I want to do all He asks me to do so I won't be made to look foolish in front of those He has sent me to but I fail to do this at times. I fall at crucial points in my walk with Him. I am man and I am week. I can do nothing except He helps me. I will rest in His embrace and be assured of the love He has for me.

Love sponsored all He did.
Love sponsored all His actions.

Love cancels all fear because love assures you of His great plan for your life. Love helps you to make sacrifices. That Love abound.

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