Omokhuwa

It looks like I will have to talk to someone.  I don't want to, but I need to. My mind is too hazy to make the right decisions.  I can't talk to God clearly.. it feels too difficult to.  What do I say? Honestly, almost two months ago, it struck me how powerful God is and how much people take Him for granted. He is God! Too powerful to be used for your benefit. Much too powerful to be made a fool of.  He will not let His holy one to see corruption. You do not touch those who are His and go scot free... not really, you don't. He abounds in mercy, yes, and we thank Him for that. But, he is too great to be messed with. Too great to play smart with. He is God! No other words sums up who He is, other than that. God! When this realization dawned on me, I wasn't in a good place with Him and thought to myself, I wouldn't deceive Him. Instead, I will do certain stuff and return after sorting my "business" out. I don't try to be what I am not, especia...

Has it been so long since I have last written?  Just early this Saturday morning, I began thinking and regretting that I didn't write all these while, both personally and publicly. No documentation. Nothing. But I thought to myself that I could just start writing now. No use waiting around and here I am. Lately, I find myself to be an avid movie person. It is funny however, I watch movies to run from dealing with things and considering how quick I have been finishing a lot of series, it only makes sense. When I am not watching a movie, it's like I have nothing else to do when I obviously do.  My days recently has been following this sequence: Chat, work, work, cook, watch movie. Nothing really makes it out of this train, and I am tempted even as I write this to write something else to cover up and make me seem cool and whatnot. However, that which is not spoken of or is hidden only grows stronger. That is what gives it more power.  I hope to write more often, ...

Guaranteed, the people in darkness have seen a Marvellous light, one that exposes and this caused a lot of the pharisees and other teachers to hate Jesus, He was the Light and exposed people’s hearts. He showed then who they were. They stood no chance but before He did so, the baby boy who they wanted to kill as a child but admired when He was 12 had built sufficient capacity now. He knew who He was, what He was called to do and nothing or no-one could take it from Him. He understood the authority He had as The Light. This is to tell us all who belong to this Light that it is imperative we understand what the Light does, who the light is and build capacity. This is not to say that you should pretend to be who you are not and try to rush the process due to the growth of others who show you the things they want you to see. No! This is to encourage us to intentionally stay and build capacity. Be honest with the Holy Spirit and ask Him to help you. He knows the best way to. You can speak t...

Lately, light has been interesting to me. For it seems that the very nature of light is to expose, now I am speaking of physical light. I recall an incident in the hostel where I was with my bucket to go fetch water... On my way outside my block(apartment, in a sense), I was without light physically but there were two ladies who had light by using their phones, this was supposed to give them an advantage. Unfortunately, immediately I stepped out of the block, they exclaimed! Asking how I was able to step out, if I didn’t see a rat. Apparently, they wanted to step into the block with their light but they caught sight of two rats and couldn’t move further. They ran back looking for who they could follow in. I wasn’t moved by the rat sightings. It wouldn’t be the first time and besides, I saw no rat. They decided that they would wait for me to be done fetching water and follow me in then. I didn’t mind but I thought it funny that they who had the light wanted to use me, who di...

It's been awhile I posted anything and the reason, to a certain extent is simple. I have felt unmotivated to post even though I had certain things written down and I also have felt the need to present a perfect version of myself. I cannot do that however so here goes: Life has been pretty simple for me lately. I have been having engagements and classes, have an accountability partner and just been living but even more so, I have been spending a lot of time with a friend of mine and I sometimes wonder at the wisdom of it.  However, even in my wondering, I understand people who say that career ladies are helpless when it comes to those they love. In most cases, they are prone to forgetting about certain laid-out plans. It is funny as this was the same reason I chose not to venture into a romantic relationship yet it's as though God looked at me and laughed, saying I did not know what was coming.  I have enjoyed my time with this friend and I will continue to, this fe...

Recently, my mind has been a haze. I have felt the need to rein in my thoughts, my feelings, my pain from those who care about me. It seems like I thought that sharing these things would make me seem emotional and like an overthinker of sorts. I feel the need to do a bit of cut and join with those around me and it's not to be so. So we meet, laugh and play together and then when I'm alone, I am back to wondering how things will go. I am left to my thoughts, these thoughts that plague me constantly and this should be the same for many others.  Who has placed these standards for perfection? How many times have I spoken to my friends about surface things as well when there is so much going on with them? This is why people say we should pray for our friends often but I wonder how much fuller and richer our relationships will be if we communicate openly more, there does not need to be a guarantee that a solution will be provided. If only we just talk. If only we just open ou...

On what template should growth be measured? Error seeps in at times even with those well meaning in the body of Christ. There are a lot of ways in which growth is communicated, ways that in more ways than one cause segregation. Ways that make you seem greater and the other lesser but who categorises those who are greater or lesser in this kingdom? Jesus. Jesus who said the first will be the last and last first. I do not have any theological explanation for this nor do I require that you write me one. It is a call for you to search your heart. How many times have we(me inclusive) all presented a greater version of ourselves in order to seem perfect? Doesn’t this kill? Putting sins in categories with one being higher than the other. Sex or anything affiliated with it is often regarded as shameful but something like not listening to God is talked of more because it is “normal.” It will not be rejected. Who made this laws? Who set these rules? Who places categories? If we...